Baby Boy Adoption

I thought I would write a little about what has been going on in my life before posting the info of the sweet boy that needs a family. But don't worry, I will post info of sweet Nolan at the end.

I took a break from my blog a couple years ago because I don't really think anyone was reading it and I needed a break. Things for us as a family are great. Both my boys are doing great dealing with cf and we still try to make that as small of a piece of their life as we can. Branson is currently doing home IV's for a tune-up. This is his 3rd week. It was suppose to only be for two weeks but the first antibiotic didn't do a good of a job as we hoped so the doctor changed his med and we will see where we are at after a week on this one. For Branson it is always something about this time of year. I am not sure if it is allergies or just the one year since his last tune-up wearing off but I always hope he can skip a year but so far no luck. Maybe next year.

Kyler is doing good. He is in 7th grade now. Middle school. Wow! How did that happen? I feel like I was in middle school just yesterday. And believe me..the issues with middle school that I had are still issues today. Yuk! I really don't miss middle school! Kyler did get to skip a couple of years of tune-ups but this past summer he had to have polyps removed so we went ahead and did a tune-up since he would be in the hospital anyway.

Jade is in pre-school now but acts like she is a teenager! She is doing good with her diabetes and she is very intune with her body. She is still using the omni pod insulin pump. Her teachers are very good with her and her needs at school. I was really worried about it before we got her into school but I refuse to let diabetes hold her back and so far my fears were a waste of my time because her school has done an excellent job with her!

So I haven't written on my blog in a couple of years but I have kept up with other blogs. And how I found Reeces Rainbow was through a blog that I followed. The blog I followed was about a family that had a child with medical issues. At one point they decided to adopt through Reece's Rainbow and I followed their blog all the way through the adoption. Their daughter was beautiful but after they got her home she really just blossomed! It was amazing seeing how different and beautiful their daughter became after being home only a short couple of months. Since then I have followed many other blogs that have adopted through RR and every SINGLE child turned into a different child after just a few short weeks home. Everyone blossomed! I love watching that miracle unfold with each child.

Looking through the pictures of each child on RR just breaks my heart. I wanted to do something to help. I want all those kids to have a Mommy and Daddy! So that is why I decided to start the blog up again. I don't know how to get people to look at my blog? Anyone know any tricks? I try to make titles that might be words people google in hopes that my blog will show up. And I donate when I can and I pray ALL the time for those children! I can't keep images out of my mind about those kids going to bed with no hugs, hungry, lonely, scare. The saddest part is knowing that when they turn 5 or 6 they head off to mental institutions.

Yesterday I was going to post a picture of a little girl that I had been praying for to find a Mom and Dad for awhile. Her name was Bridgett. She was 5 and I knew her time was running out. She was a blond hair, blue eyed beauty. She had HIV. Her birth Mom refused her at birth. A couple that was at her orphanage adopting her best friend blogged about how Bridgett asked every day if she had a Mama and a Papa coming...Broke my heart to read that! They talked about how sweet she was and how she loved little bitty toys and heart stickers. They talked about how hard she cried when they walked out of the gates with their daughter, her best friend for the last time.

So I prayed for her and I donated to her fund and yesterday when I went to find her info and picture on RR it was gone. My heart started beating fast and I hoped it would be on the page "My Family Found Me." I frantically scrolled down that page and her picture was not there. I cried. The only thing it could mean is she has been transferred to a mental institution and she is no longer available for adoption. Her time ran out. Oh how my heart is hurting for her! A six year old little girl in a mental institution because she has HIV. Unthinkable! No toys, no education, no swings or slides. They will have a bed and food if they are lucky. Most children do not make it two years once they are transferred. All I can do is pray for her now.

But I will continue to advocate for these kids and hope people find my blog and hope that God will tug at their hearts. For all those who are coming and reading my blog Thank You!!! And now here is a sweet little boy up for adoption through RR..

http://reecesrainbow.org/nolan117

Boy, Born September 9, 2004

Nolan is such a handsome boy! He needs a loving family!

From his medical records: long-term effects of some early trauma, slight mental delay, flat feet, farsightedness. He has fine motor skills, understands everything, he talks but it is hard to understand him. Nolan is very physically active, happy and cooperative, friends with other children.

These children are truly living on borrowed time, and families should be home study approved before an official commitment can be made for this child.

Nolan is 7 years old and he is already at a mental institution. But it is a mental institution that will allow kids to still be adopted so that is the great news! The bad news is the mental institution that he is at is a bad one! A lot of kids die of starvation at this institution. The fact that he has held on this long is a miracle! As I have said before RR takes you through the international adoption process from beginning to end. So please if you are considering adoption please consider Nolan. From what I understand his flat feet are (were) the worst of his conditions. A lot of times when they say mental delay it is because they have never been to school and once they get to the institutions they are kept in their bed day in and day out but I have watched kids come alive once they got home. Their brains catch up quickly! If you email RR they can email you back with more pictures (if they have them) and more info on Nolan. And if you can't adopt please consider donating for the cost of his adoption. Thank you!!

My Super Model

Dear Jade

Dear Jade,

We are so blessed to have you as our daughter! I know how lucky we are!! So, so lucky!! I dreamed of having a daughter since I was little and you by far have exceed my expectations!! Each and every day after lunch we go outside to play with all your outside toys. I love watching you play with your huge imagination. Today you were running up to a toy bike and you stopped right in your tracks and looked across the driveway. Something caught your attention. You stood and looked the direction that had caught your attention and after a minute you ran across the drive way and bent over to look at whatever it was that you saw. After a few seconds of looking you picked it up and ran back to me and said "look mama! A baby rock!!" It was so cute!! You felt like you found a treasure in that "baby rock." Then you went on the hunt for more "baby rocks."


After your search you found Kyler's skate board and put it in your wagon. You teetered it across the two seats on each end and sat on the skate board and said "mama push me." And so we went on a walk, me pulling your wagon and you sitting on the skate board in the wagon. You have such a great imagination!! As we were walking I noticed how you started to suck your two middle fingers and were holding on to your hair. I love when you do that! Of course it means you are tried. I asked if you were ready for your nap and of course you said "no!" You quickly took your fingers out of your mouth and pushed your hair back as if I wouldn't notice. We walked back to the house and I put you to bed. As I shut the door you yelled out "nite, nite mama!" And told you that I love you! As I walked down the stairs you yelled out again " Love you mama!" We do this all the time...our little ritual.

I love you, Jade!! Always have, always will!!

I know how blessed I am to have you as my daughter!!!!

Kyler And Branson's Bday Partys April 2009

Happy Easter!

Sweet Jade

Last Sun we went to eat at Pei Wei. We always get edamae and Jade loves edamame but we have to get the soybeans out of the shell for her. Well she was so hungry I couldn't get them out fast enough. At one point she looked up at me and said "more" and did the sign language sign for more. For some reason when she did that it just melted my heart and I almost cried! Even now just thinking about it makes me want to cry. I don't know why because it was so cute but it is just one of those things. She is just so sweet and when she did that it made her even sweeter, if that is even possible. I will never forget how she did that! Never forget the look on her face! Wish I could video tape every second of all the kids!! That was the first time she did the sign language. The last week she was in school they had written on her paper that they learned some sign language but this was the first time she did it. It was amazing to me that she remembered it and knew how to use it!

We are still waiting to hear back from a preschool to see if they will let her in (they have to approve because she now has type 1 diabetes). She really misses school. Everytime we drive by her old one (they couldn't take her anymore because she got diabetes, said they couldn't take on the liability) she points and says "school, school." But I know it will all work out.

Jade's Dr appt went well. We talked about how she does not like the shots and the Dr gave us something called an I-Port. Google I-Port and you can see a picture and how it works. But it is a port that you put in her and it stays in her for 3 days and you give her shots in it so she doesn't feel it!! Then you change it after 3 days. It has made life so much easier! I don't know why they don't tell you about these right off the bat! I think it would make things so much less tramatic for a child when first getting diagnosed! Paul had never heard of them before either but the Dr said they had been out for awhile. Anyway it has made it a lot easier!

Hope everyone is having a good week!

New Post

So I haven't posted in a while...not sure why. Things are going good. Jade has been good, the boys have been good. I have been trying to just process everything I guess. I find myself making up these dumb sayings like....The world just keeps on going, guess I better jump back on or it will run over me. Or .....well now I can't think of all the little saying I have made up in my head the last few days. Wow! Just totally blank! I do know my mind has just been spinning a mile a minute the last few weeks. I feel somewhat disoriented. Not really in a bad way, just my whole normal thinking has been thrown off. All the "why, why, why?" and I just search my brain for some sort of answer. I have come up with a few that make sense to me. I really couldn't type them out...I tried to explain a few to Paul but couldn't really convey what was in my head, although Paul said he understood what I was saying.

The preschool Jade was at told us she couldn't come back. Said they couldn't take on that kind of liability. Ok, fine. I understand that but we payed for the whole month of Feb and she only went till the 9th of Feb so we asked for the rest of the money back. They said fine but we have to give them two weeks notice since we are leaving? What? So we say, but we are not wanting to leave..you are kicking us out so why would we have to pay two extra weeks for a notice? They say, well that's the way we do it. Ok, whatever. It's all about the buck these days. I sure couldn't run a daycare and make a family pay for two weeks because we couldn't take their child any longer because they now had diabetes. I couldn't look anyone in the face and ask for that. But, guess that is just me. Yep, some things really let you get to "know" people.

So one of our friends has been watching Jade for us while I try to finish this semester at school. At first I was just going to quit, but Paul said I should at least finish this semester and see where it goes from there. So far it has all worked out so we will see what happens. Right now we are waiting on another preschool to see if they will let us in. They said it was a good chance they would because they have had kids with diabetes before. The Dr had to write a note and then it goes before the "review board" at this preschool. It is a fancise so it has to go to corporate. She loves school and I hate that this is now a challenge. I told the place we are trying to get into now that I could just have her come a couple days a week and I could pick her up right after lunch so they wouldn't have to do the shot so we will see.

Jade has been as cute as ever! She has really been talking up a storm the last couple of weeks! Saying words she has never said before and just talking, talking, talking! Cute, cute and cute! Me and Jade have always been close (she is my BABY!!) but the last few weeks we have gotten even closer! I love that girl with all my heart and it just grows everyday!!

The boys have been as sweet as ever as well! Kyler started up spring baseball and had his first game tonight! It was a tie but Kyler played really well and got a hit first time up at bat! He made it to 1st base and then ran the bases!! He also played second base and got a kid out on the other team! He was smiling ear to ear he was so proud!! Branson started back up in soccer. His first game is this Sat. He is really excited about it!

Well that is it for now...Jade has her first Dr appt tomorrow so I will let you know how it goes. Although, I am pretty sure it will be fine since Paul knows more than the Dr. LOL! We have to call the Dr every day to give her blood numbers and then the Dr is suppose to adjust the amount of insulin but the Dr has been asking Paul what to do. LOL! She said Jade has had the best numbers and told Paul he should become a diabetes Dr.....You really don't understand it as much unless you have it I guess, even if you are a Dr.

Night!!

Cute Pictures Of Jade And When She Was In The Hospital

Here are a few pictures of Jade being cute and a few of when she was in the hospital. Her face looks swollen in the pictures at the hospital because they had saline running in her iv trying to hydrate her. Notice her necklace in the hospital pictures, it is a crown with rubys on top of a heart. You can click on the picture (the ones where she is sitting up) and it will enlarge the picture so you can see the necklace better.The boys picked that out for her at the gift shop. It came in a cute little crown box. She liked the box more than anything!

Jade is doing really good this week. When it is time to do blood test (we have to stick her figure for blood) she just gives us her hand. She still cries with the shots and says no, no but she is getting better. Paul can do it so fast she doesn't even see it coming and she doesn't cry when he does it. I am not that good yet.

Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since she was diagnosed. In some ways it feels like forever ago and other ways it feels like yesterday. I have been praying for peace, peace of mind, positive thoughts, acceptance and just how thankful I am of my family and I really feel like it is working. In fact I almost can't believe how fast I have felt acceptance of the whole situation. Of course I am still praying for a miracle and that her diabetes just goes away...guess I haven't totally accepted it...Thanks for everyone's prayers!

Jade's Birthday Pictures!!!

I took about a billion pictures of Jade on her Bday yesterday but I will just post a few. She had a great Bday and played till she couldn't stand up she was so tried! It was really a great Bday!! I love you Jade!!!

Jade's Birthday!

Tomorrow is Jade's Birthday!! The big 2! I think we bought every toy at the toy store and a ton of clothes! A girl has to have clothes! We feel very blessed that she is our daughter and love her more than anything in this world!! In fact, we love all our kids more than anything in this world and our love for all of them just grows more and more and more and more everyday!!!! Just when I think I can't love them anymore my heart will quadruple a million time over!! Plus some!!

Happy Birthday Jade!! I love your more than anything and feel so blessed that you are our daughter!!

Jade

Tueday Feb 10th, exactly 10 days before my daughter's 2nd Birthday she is diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. Our hearts are shattered into a million pieces. Why? Why? There are no answers I guess. No answers for cf, no answers for diabetes. It has started already...her perfect, beautiful porcelain skin is bruising from the shots she must now take. How many times can I cry? Apparently a lot. She sees me coming with the shot and she instantly starts crying. Then I start crying...again. They say she will get use to it but I know I won't. Just completely breaks my heart. Why? I don't think we have slept since she got home from the hospital. Constantly checking on her. Why can't someone make a monitor to alert you if you have low blood sugar? Guess it is more important to come up with the technology to find the name of a song playing on a restaurant by holding up a phone. Guess I am angry too. How can this happen to a child? A toddler? My baby?

Jade And Her Blankie!

When Jade was 6 months old she started holding on to this one particular pink blanket and ever since then she has to have her blanket when she goes to bed, is upset, not feeling well, ect. We just always called it her 'blankie'. Well about 6 months ago (she is almost 2) she started asking where her JuJu was. It took us a couple of days and then realized when she said JuJu she meant her blanket. Some how/reason she named her blanket juju! We don't know where she got that name or why she named her blanket this but it is so cute! I am just impressed that at a 1 1/2 she was able to name her blanket juju and she came up with that name all on her own! I just wonder what she was thinking when she named it! Where did juju come from?? Like I said we never said that name before! Kids are so cute!! I just love how their minds work!!

Roller Skating And Jade!

Picture Tag- Read Below Picture!

The object of the picture tag is to:

1) Choose the 4th folder where you store your pictures on your computer

2) Select the 4th picture in the folder

3) Explain the picture

4) Tag 4 people to do the same

NO CHEATING! (cropping, editing, etc!)

Here is mine!

A couple of months ago Jade became obsessed with shoes! My shoes, her shoes, any shoes (yep she is a girl!) and everyday she would go in my closet and come out with a pair of my shoes on. The funny thing was she would get a different pair everyday. So this is a picture of her with my shoes on.

Ok, I am not going to just tag 4 people...I tag everyone!! So now go find your 4th picture!! Can't wait to see yours!!!

Love This Pictures Of Jade! And Paul!