My sweet Branson!! I love how you see the world. Back in Nov on our way to see my parents in Amarillo we were driving and Branson gets all excited and says "Kyler look at that big wishing well!!! It's the biggest wishing well ever!!!" We all look over to where Branson is pointing and it is some sort of grain holder in a field. It did look like a wishing well once Branson said that. He then asked how could you throw a penny in to make a wish because it was about 3 or 4 stories tall. I will never forget that day!! Branson, may you always find the biggest wishing wells ever and may you always find ways to get those pennys in to make your wishes!! Don't forget, you were my wish come true!!! I love you Branson!!!!
I am done with school as of this week!! I am still waiting on grades but have my fingers crossed for A's! My kids are not out of school till June 5th so I have a few days till we are all home. I am not going to school during the summer because my kids will be home but I am ready for a break and some traveling!! I had a lot of fun this semester at school and am really glad I went back. I met a lot of great people and some really great friends!!
Boys are doing great and Jade is also doing great! We got her the omnipod pump for her diabetes and it is going pretty good with it! It is a wireless pump that has a remote to put in what she eats, ect. We are pretty excited because the part that goes on Jade is really small but in Dec omnipod is coming out with an even smaller version that is suppose to be 40% smaller by lenght and width!! That is just amazing to me because it is already so small!! The technology is pretty amazing with the omnipod too!!
Hope everyone is doing well and ready for summer!! I am I am ready!!!
Little kids are so in tune with what their bodies need. It really just amazes me to watch little kids eat. Usually we have a meat, a carb and a vegie for each dinner. Ex- grilled chicken, rice and broccoli. Every time I set a plate in front of Jade she goes for the veggie first. EVERY TIME! She will finish that and then maybe eat a little meat and carb. Sometimes she will have 2nds and 3rds of the veggie and at times that is all she will eat, just the veggies! Both boys did this as well untill they got a little older. Now with Kyler I have to ask him to take a few bites of his veggies. Brans is still pretty good about eatting his veggies but its not the 1st thing he goes for anymore.
Another thing I notice with Jade is she always asks for furits for a snack. We have cookies, pop tarts, cerials, goldfish cracker, ect, ect, ect and she knows we have all this but she always asks for fruit. Grapes, apples, banannas, oranges, ect.
Lately, when I start craving a snack I force myself to have fruit and after a few days your body really does start craving fruit instead of junk. It just amazes me how in tune little kids are with their body!! I am taking a lesson and taking notes!
The first time I held Kyler when he was born and looked into his eyes the first thought I had was "Oh no, he knows I have no idea what I am doing!" Then I thought "Why did I think that? He is just a baby and I know what I am doing....kind of." Kyler had such deep eyes that seemed to hold all the answers and all the knowlege of the world. It looked as if he had been in this world a 100 times. This was before we knew anything about cf. I realize now he probably did have some knowlege about what was to come and he was right...I had no idea what I was doing. As I have said before, he has taught me so much! About life, love, happiness, strength, laughter, fun, living, looking on the bright side, smiling and the list goes on and on! But one thing he has taught me is that I 'think' too much!
Kyler looks just like Paul. He has from the start and all I heard when he was born was how much he looked like Paul. 'Paul, he is your mini me.' 'Paul, he is your clone, twin, exact same,can't tell you two apart, Ect, ect, ect. ' I am glad he looks like Paul, after all Paul is very handsome!! So Kyler has his looks going for him thats for sure!! Tall, dark and handsome!! But the inside of Kyler, well thats a different story! Kyler and me have the same brain. Same thinking. Our brains, Kyler's and mine, well we think, think, think and think some more! One thing my dad use to tell me was "get your brain out of it! Your thinking too much!" And he was always right.
We will worry ourselves sick at times. We will make things way more complacated then they are. We will think ourselves right out of the right answer thinking it must not be that easy so it must be harder. We will need to get from A to B but instead of just simply going from A to B we will first go from A to Z to Y to X all the way back to B. Yep, thats me and Kyler. But on a positive note something that is really complex we can somehow find the shortcut or make it easier than thought possible. At times when one must go from Z to A by means of Z to Y to X to W, ect all the way to A me and Kyler will some how figure out we can simply go from Z to A going the other way and not mess with all the other stuff. Yep, complex stuff comes easy to our brain, but easy stuff well we make it more....complex.
Yep, Kyler's mind has been a mirror for me. I can clearly see now how my thinking is. It's not all bad. We have some really interesting thoughts. But when things are not big deal somehow we can make them a big deal just by thinking, thinking, thinking. I have gotten better through the years. Paul has taught me how to cut out all the 'what if's.' If only I knew back then what I know now and of course since I know this I always try to tell Kyler all the secrets I have learned through the years. But like I didn't understand my dad when he told me to get my brain out of it, Kyler doesn't really understand what I am saying. I have to come up with little tricks to help him. An example, in baseball before he goes up to bat, his mind will be spinning and it ends up making him strike out. So I once told him to picture someone's face that you don't like on the ball and you will hit a home run. That worked for him....it shut his mind off from trying to 'think' how to hit the ball to just getting his mind out of it and focused on something else to allow him to hit the ball. Lots of little tricks like that.
Paul laughs all the time, saying how Kyler is me, although sometimes I think Paul wants to cry. Lol! We can come up with really off the wall 'what if's.' It drives Paul crazy but at the same time I think it entertains him.
Yep Kyler looks just like Paul on the outside but me and him, same on the inside!! I love you Kyler with all my heart!! Just remember...I know you with all my heart and head!!
Branson lost a tooth the other day! I think this is his 3rd or 4th one. So under his pillow it went! And of course the tooth fairy came!! I am pretty sure Branson doesn't believe in the Tooth Fairy anymore (I am sure Kyler is to thank for that) but I sure try and make him believe!
When he woke up he said "guess how much money I got!" I told him how great that was and that the TF must really love him. He looked at me and said "I think it is you." Me.. "You think I am the TF? How would I have time to travel all over the world and give kids money for their teeth and where in the world would I keep all the teeth of all the kids all over the world?" He just looked up at me and you could tell his brain was trying to process that. Then he said "no, just to me." Me.."So you think I am only your TF and that no other kid in the whole world gets money when they lose a tooth? Then how do all the kids know about the TF if I am the TF but only give you money?" Again, he looks up at me and trys to analize what I just said. I was trying hard not to laugh. Finally, he said.."Ok, ok the TF is real." I know he doesn't really believe that but I just want to keep the magic alive as long as I can.
It reminds me of when I was little and my dad use to do a magic trick with a quater. He would put it in his hand and tell me to blow on his hand. Then he would open his hand and the quarter would be gone. Then he would magically pull it out of my ear. I got to a age where I knew it wasn't really magic anymore but still didn't know how he did it. Now my dad does that trick for my kids....Oh how wonderful magic is as a kid and tooth fairys, Easter bunnys, ect, ect, ect...Why do we ever have to leave childhood??
We are so blessed to have you as our daughter! I know how lucky we are!! So, so lucky!! I dreamed of having a daughter since I was little and you by far have exceed my expectations!! Each and every day after lunch we go outside to play with all your outside toys. I love watching you play with your huge imagination. Today you were running up to a toy bike and you stopped right in your tracks and looked across the driveway. Something caught your attention. You stood and looked the direction that had caught your attention and after a minute you ran across the drive way and bent over to look at whatever it was that you saw. After a few seconds of looking you picked it up and ran back to me and said "look mama! A baby rock!!" It was so cute!! You felt like you found a treasure in that "baby rock." Then you went on the hunt for more "baby rocks."
After your search you found Kyler's skate board and put it in your wagon. You teetered it across the two seats on each end and sat on the skate board and said "mama push me." And so we went on a walk, me pulling your wagon and you sitting on the skate board in the wagon. You have such a great imagination!! As we were walking I noticed how you started to suck your two middle fingers and were holding on to your hair. I love when you do that! Of course it means you are tried. I asked if you were ready for your nap and of course you said "no!" You quickly took your fingers out of your mouth and pushed your hair back as if I wouldn't notice. We walked back to the house and I put you to bed. As I shut the door you yelled out "nite, nite mama!" And told you that I love you! As I walked down the stairs you yelled out again " Love you mama!" We do this all the time...our little ritual.
I love you, Jade!! Always have, always will!!
I know how blessed I am to have you as my daughter!!!!
Happy 10th Bday Kyler!!! I love you so much!! You have taught me so much in life!! Everyday your smile lights up the world! Thank you for being in our lives and for making each day more fun than the last day!! Happy Bday Kyler!!!
Hi! My name is Carolyn and I have the three best kids in the world along with the best husband ever! My oldest son, Kyler is 10. Branson is 7 and my daughter, Jade, just turned 2. My two sons have cf. We treat cf the same way we do taking a shower or brushing our teeth. You have to take a shower but you don't talk about it all day or think about it all day. You just do it. And that is the way we treat cf, we do what we need to do but thats all the attention cf gets! Then we spend the rest of the day doing things we love and have fun with! Now I know cf is more serious than brushing your teeth, ect but this is the best way I can explain it. CF is a part of our lives but we don't let it overtake our lives. I love horses and animals! I have a horse and ride English Hunter Undersaddle (jumping). I have had my horse since she was 3 and now she is 21 so for 18 years! I can't believe it has been that long! Update..our daughter Jade was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes Feb 09 ten days before her 2nd Bday. We are not sure why God has chosen this path for us and our kids but know we will continue on with love and strength and hope.